Today I had to send one of the hardest text messages I have ever had to send. I had to tell a client that I was taking a break from photography.
For the last few years I have had this small gig called a photography business. It wasn't big, but it kept me busy. It made me focus on improving my photography skills. It also made me juggle being a stay-at-home mom and working from home. That is not an easy thing to do. I know of several photographers who stay at home with their kids and still have their photography on the side and they seem to manage it well. I didn't feel like I was good at balancing both jobs. When I was working on photography, I felt like I should be spending more time with my kids. When I was spending time with my kids, my mind was constantly focused on photography and all the things I needed to get done. Taking the pictures is one thing, but you also have to edit them (at least I do) which adds up to countless hours spent behind the computer screen.
I decided to take a brief hiatus after Jo Jo was born. I had made up my mind that I would take the winter off which wasn't difficult to do considering winter is my slow season, but on Sunday I got a text from a friend who has been a loyal client ever since I started taking photos. They were honestly my favorite family to photograph. She asked if I could take pictures of her one year old. I had to think about it. I thought about it for two days. I was grateful that this family had kept coming back to me, but I also enjoyed my little hiatus with my girls. I was less stressed and didn't seem to be as "short fused" with my family. In that time I also realized how fast time goes and how your life can change in an instant. I am blessed with three beautiful girls and am fortunate to have the opportunity to be a stay-at-home mom, so for now my life is dedicated to them.
So today, after worrying about my decision, I made up my mind. I am hanging up the photographer hat for now. I'm not giving it up completely. I will still take pictures and let my love for photography grow, but for now my business is being a stay-at-home mom. I hope to put the hat back on someday, but for now I am enjoying my three girls!